Thursday, October 31, 2013

Happy Halloween!

I just can't believe it's already Halloween! Wow did this month fly by! Halloween isn't quite the same this year because we missed our annual Halloween party so we didn't dress up this year... bummer. We also have not had time to carve pumpkins yet because Joe has been working 10-12 hour days for the last couple weeks. Luckily because of my pumpkin pranster (found out it was my aunt!) I have quite a few pumpkins so at least my front steps will be festive.
previous Halloween costumes! Dorothy & Popeye, Ron Burgundy & Veronica Corningstone
& Ghost Rider & Cleopatra

It's been raining here since yesterday afternoon with no breaks in sight, but trick or treating is still on in our 
town. I did buy candy and I am planning to pass it out. I always watch Nightmare Before Christmas when I pass out candy, but I think I'm going to watch Hocus Pocus this year & then once the kids quit coming, I'd like to watch The Conjuring.

pumpkins from previous years

I did end up wearing black & orange today to work & brought in some pumpkin spice cupcakes & candycorn to snack on. The cupcakes turned out pretty good. That kind of stuff goes really fast, especially on a rain day when the guys are all in the office!

Happy Halloween Everyone!!

Monday, October 28, 2013

Galena Getaway Weekend

First and foremost, again, I just have to take a moment to extend a sincere thank you to those of you who I'm still getting messages, emails, & texts from so many people!  All of the sharing that I've done of some very private things has certainly paid off.  The outpouring of support that we are receiving will never cease to amaze me.  

Once again today, I was overcome by the love & support of so many.  I came home to find a package in my mailbox from a jewelry company, & thought to myself, what on Earth did I order now that I forgot about?  I opened it up to find a small box containing a Good Luck Fertility Necklace with a wishbone charm on it along with a pomegranate colored pearl & a white stone.  I read the message inside & was so unbelievably surprised when I read who it was from.  I would never put it past this girl to do something so sweet for someone she doesn't know all that well.  She's known Joe a long time & I'm so grateful to her that she was so kind to think of us.  She is probably the most thoughtful and nice girl I've ever met, and that's not an exaggeration.  The package was from both her and her boyfriend who is equally as nice of a person.  I can't thank them both enough for thinking of us as we're going through this.  It once again goes to show that even though there are people you expected to hear from, but didn't, there are people you didn't expect to hear from & do.  Thank you both Elizabeth & Justin for the heartfelt gift! (Hope you guys don't mind me putting you on the spot!)

We did make it to Galena this weekend, a little later in the day than originally planned, but we had a really nice time, the weather was amazing, & it turned out to be a lot of fun.  Eagle Ridge is always beautiful, but this time we ended up in a villa rather than at the inn, which was great.  Next time I'd like to bring some of our own food, and more board games and stay the entire weekend.  It was a two bedroom with a fully stocked kitchen, a fireplace, a grill, two bathrooms, washer/dryer, seriously, it had everything! It had an amazing view too.

We ended up getting ready & hitting the Eagle Ridge pub for a few cocktails and dinner.  We headed back to the villa and watched Amityville Horror on AMC for a little while in front of the nice warm fire, having a few more drinks, then hit the hay.  We were all tired and full from dinner.

this was taken at about 7AM, it was around 25 degrees outside & that was frost on
the golf course, it was a cold morning!

Sunday morning we got up, went into town & had breakfast, played in some of the shops, then took my parents to Chestnut Mountain the ski resort to ride the Alpine Slide.  It was so much fun.  Joe thought that he could beat me, but ended up going a little too fast around a curve & went off the track, hit his head, & ended up chasing his sled which ended up on my track, about 100 ft before he caught it and got back on.  I didn't even see it happen because I was kicking his ass right outta the gate!  We headed home after that & relaxed the rest of the evening.  

It turned out to be a beautiful weekend!  I'm not sure how many more we will get like this before it turns to winter.  This weekend we are headed to VEGAS!  I just started packing today.  Can't wait to see these two get married.  We are going to have such a blast!

58 days til Christmas!

Friday, October 25, 2013

five on friday!

Happy Friday Friends!  Hope you all love the new blog layout!  It was time for a change!  

One. Snow
Yes.  Snow.  We got 1" of snow here in Illinois, no surprise, we are used to experiencing several seasons in one day, however this was pretty early to have this much snow actually stick to the ground & the snowflakes were like the size of quarters & it snowed for probably about an hour or so.  It was really beautiful to look it, it would've been really beautiful to look at while sipping Grappa & sitting in front of a fire somewhere, but le sigh, I was at work.  At least I was inside!  

noticeable amount of snow in the grass, on the pumpkins, and my glass outdoor table. 

Two. Galena Weekend
This weekend we area heading up to Galena with my parents for our anniversaries (theirs was 9/15 ours was 9/24).  They've never been so I can’t wait to show them around the perfectly quaint little town.  Bonus, it’s the Halloween parade downtown on Saturday so I’m super pumped to see that for the first time.  We are possibly taking the bike, but will definitely have to bundle up.  We’re staying at a villa at Eagle Ridge where we stayed for our honeymoon and our first anniversary.  Really looking forward to a quiet weekend away before next weekend’s Vegas trip!

hoping to have scenery like this on the ride up!

Three.  One-pan Chicken Alfredo
I found this recipe on Pinterest and let me just say WOW, sooo good and sooo easy.  Love that it’s all made in one pan, those are the easiest of recipes especially for cleanup reasons!  I followed the recipe pretty exact except for I used a cup of asiago (my favorite) & a cup of reduced fat parmesan.  It was really rich & filling.  Perfect for a hungry husband whose been working long hours outside in the fields all day struggling with allergies.  He was more than grateful. 

sooo easy & yummy!

Four. Christmas Garland (West Elm)
Of course like many others I’m sure, I recently purchased the Red Felt Garland from West Elm thanks to Jessica at Little Baby Garvin.  Shipping was free & I had 10% off so I got a little bit of a deal on it.  One of my favorite Etsy shops, TheFickleFeltTree also sells really adorable felt garland, some of which I purchased last year.  I thought this red strand would be a nice compliment to last year’s purchase.   I’m also planning on the bouquet of billyballs that match the garland.  Felt is oh-so fun!

billy balls to be ordered to match my garlands

Christmas garland I bought last year via Etsy!

Five. CNJ Style
A girl I know from a neighboring town just opened up this seriously adorable boutique in La Salle called CNJ Style.  She's got the hottest & most fashionable trends that you can order via her Facebook page or by stopping in her store downtown La Salle.  Her prices are AMAZING & she is so sweet & friendly.  I came home with an awesome haul of chevron, leopard, & pleather on Wednesday & I'm so excited to start shopping there.  Her grand opening is November 2nd.  She also has a really awesome rewards program that you don't see very often with small boutiques.  You get a card, she emails you coupons and you receive points for every dollar that you spend!  I highly recommend checking out her on Facebook or if you are local, stop down and see her!  She has a pretty well established higher-end boutique right across the street from her so props to her for setting up shop where she did, she is going to do awesome in our little town!  Congrats Jennie!
got the super cute leopard dress($35) for my upcoming trip to Vegas, the adorable princess sleeve
top($22), & the ultra comfy, perfect for fall, chevron maxi skirt($26) with a cream fringe scarf!

Thursday, October 24, 2013

how to cope

Even though we have come so unbelievably far in the last couple of weeks, there is still uncertainty about ever becoming parents. I think our chances are really good, & our doctor thinks they are too, but there is still a little voice in the back of your head that says, “what if this doesn’t work?” I can’t even begin to describe how much better I’ve felt about the entire situation since seeing the fertility specialist & I think Joe probably feels much better too, but I will never forget what I felt over the last two years as we struggled with this, the letdowns, the fights, the tears, bruised friendships, jealousy, inadequacy, sleepless nights, and a whole hell of a lot of negativity overall. My whole point of this is that when you’re struggling with infertility (or anything else in this world) you have to have ways to cope. If you don’t, you could find yourself in a very dark place, struggling to see the light. What I’ve found to be the best ways to cope & the ways to reduce stress…

1. A supportive & loving partner. Hands down…If you have nothing else in this, you have to be on the same page as your husband or significant other & even if you don’t always agree, you have to have each other’s backs & be playing for the same team. You will not succeed if you don’t. You have to both want the same things & you have to talk about those things. You have to make sure that if for some reason you weren't able to conceive a child of your own, you won’t resent each other. You love that person unconditionally; well this is part of that. There are NO conditions when you love someone unconditionally. If you do make it a condition of your love, then you are certain to fail.  And most importantly, you have to be able to make each other smile when times are the hardest!

this was almost six years ago, being silly & just laughing together with my favorite person.

2. Super, totally awesome, amazing friends & family. I’ve been sooo lucky in this department. My friends & family have showed the most genuine concern for me, especially since seeing the FS, having the surgery, & finding out that my friend Jen is pregnant. We want to be pregnant together & she along with the rest of my best girls & closest family members are rooting for us. I received so many unbelievable texts, messages, emails, blog comments, phone calls, etc. from people I would expect to hear from, & many from people I would never think would even read my blog or have any concern for me at all. We are truly blessed to have so many amazing people in support of us.

me with my J's!  we don't get many opportunities to all be together at the same time
cherish every minute that we do!

my awesome mom who has been through A LOT with me & always been
my #1 fan.

3. Relationships with people who are going through the same thing…I can’t stress this enough. Your husband and family, & friends will be amazing throughout, but they will never really understand what you are going through. I found a couple bloggers who went through or are currently going through the same thing. It’s nice to have someone to compare notes with. And if you can find a person who you know (I found Aimee!!) & can talk on a more personal level with, that’s even better. You would be surprised at how many people struggle with infertility (1 in 5 actually, that means there are several people you know!) Of course not everyone is as willing to publicly proclaim their problems, but having someone you can relate to is so reassuring.

convo between Aimee (pink) & me (blue)... we are behind each other 100%

4. Times you can forget about the stress, relax, & have fun. It’s important to be able to take your mind off of the things that are creating stress & negativity in your life. Stress can greatly affect your chances of getting pregnant. The cycle is vicious though. Try not to be stressed after you’ve been TTC for two years, it’s a huge challenge! De-stress by working out, taking a vacation or weekend getaway, getting a massage (Reiki is great for fertility!), pampering yourself with a mani/pedi, going out & having some good old fashioned fun, or going on a date with your husband, occupy your mind with anything positive. Positive thoughts=positive outcomes.

bike trip, the most amazing ocean i've ever seen, a relaxing pedi, & a simple night out with friends

I hope that I can help anyone who feels like they are alone in this because you really aren’t. There are many of us out there. The farther we go in this process, the more I feel like I want to share every part, the good, & the bad of this journey. You never know who you can give a glimmer of hope to just by sharing your stories. I want to be able to look back on this one day & be happy that I documented everything that I was feeling, what I needed, who was there for me, & what worked & what didn't. Baby dust, baby dust, baby dust! 

Friday, October 18, 2013

a sincere thank you

All I can say is that I am sooo beyond blessed to have such an outpouring of support over the last few days.  I never thought that sharing my experience would cause so many people to share their stories or just their support for what I'm going through.  Not only have my friends and family been so amazing, but the ladies of blogland have also been so wonderful.  I've really learned a lot about people in the last few days.  People that you think would be behind won't always be behind you.  And people that you never thought would be rooting for you, actually are.  I want to sincerely thank each and every one of you who sent a text, called, emailed, read my blog, left a comment, or came to visit me.  So many kind words & nice surprises & gifts.  

my little sis-in-law Delaney came home from Blo-No and brought my a Gotta Have It
Birthday Cake Remix from Coldstone!  YUMMMM!

my bestie Jen brought me over Avojuice in Sweet Tea (hell yeah), Essie All Tied Up, 
Essie Sleek Stick Over the Moon nail applique's and OPI Top Coat & a file.  She's so sweet :)

I'm sure there are people who read my blog (or not) and wonder why I am sharing all of this personal stuff about myself and our lives.  First of all, #idgaf (got it?!) yeah, that's right, I Don't Give A Fuck what anyone thinks about what I write.  And after all of the awesome comments and emails I got today, I feel even more validation that what I'm talking about, people can relate to. Ultimately,  I'm doing it for me, and no one else, but if someone can relate, if someone feels less alone about their situation, than I'm accomplishing more than what I set out to in the first place.   I'll leave this thought with this quote from the oh-so-delicious Johnny Depp...

#truth #idgaf

I spoke with Deena today, Dr. G's nurse, she called to check on me & schedule our next appointment. We are scheduled to go back to Peoria on November 5th to start the next step of this process.  I'm continuing with birth control (skipping a period) until the appointment so that they will have control of my cycle at that time and I can get started on Clomid.  I can't believe how quickly this process is going compared to the slow and arduous two years that we've just gone through.  

So next weekend we go to Galena (hopefully on the bike) with my parents for our anniversary celebrations & the following weekend we are headed to Vegas for Joe's lifelong friends wedding. We also have a settlement conference from our accident next Friday so lots of things going on to occupy the time while we wait for this next big step...loving life & feeling so blessed.  

One other thing, be on the lookout for a new blog layout coming very soon!  I feel like we've turned a new and exciting leaf so I'm going to spruce up the blog a bit, add a pop of color, & a little more excitement to it in the next couple days!  Can't wait to see the finished product! 

five on friday

One.  Laparoscopy Procedure
Thursday we made our way down to the Peoria Day Surgery Center for the laparoscopy procedure.  If you've ever had a surgery before then you know the process is slllooowww & a little painful (in more ways than one!)  We were told to be there at 9 and that surgery would be at 11.  We got there at 9 and I wasn't called back until about 10.  It was freezing in there (always is), but they were very accommodating.  I went in by myself at first to get changed and get my IV.  I was talking with the nurse about being from La Salle-Peru area and working at Ameren, all of a sudden from the next curtain over I hear "Elena?", I respond "yes??"... she says, "it's Aimee!" Turns out in the bed next to me was a friend of mine from Peoria Aimee who was the maid of honor in my cousins wedding that we were in together.  I thought I recognized her husband in the waiting room when we arrived, but I wasn't sure since I'd only met him a couple times.  Aimee and I got along so well being bridesmaids for my cousin.  It was very reassuring seeing a familiar face & she happened to be getting the exact same procedure, just by a different doctor!  What a small world!  We decided that we are definitely joining each other's support teams & planning to keep in contact about our progress.  She went in before I did, we wished each other luck & said we'd talk tomorrow.  My surgery started about 30-45 minutes late (not as bad as my knee surgery 3 hours late).  I had to walk to the OR, lay down, and they immediately pumped me with anesthesia, it was burning my hand so bad I decided to just close my eyes and help the process along, next thing I knew I was in recovery trying to read the clock.  I asked for my glasses, but the clock was still blurry so I knew I was still really out of it.  About 10 minutes later I was able to read the clock, 1:30.  They wheeled me in to Stage 2 Recovery where Joe met me, I had some water & was able to check out my incisions.  I was in quite a bit of pain, lots of pressure & kind of a constipation type feeling mixed with bad menstrual cramps, that's the best way I can describe it.  About an hour later I got slowly dressed & made my way to the car.  I immediately took a pain killer and closed my eyes for the ride home.  I'm having a lot of pain in my chest and rib area more than where my incisions are,  but they did pump me up with CO to make room in my abdominal area to work.  I'm still a little bloated, from that (plus stuffing my face with Liptons and about 6 double stuffed Oreos when I got home).  Next week I have to go back to have my incisions checked & I should be hearing from Dr. G's office today about coming in and starting the next step of the process.  He did find a couple spots of  endometriosis that he was able to cauterize, he told Joe about what he found and showed him some pictures of what they did.  He immediately Googled it and told me about it when I was more coherent.  Very common, no cure, but can be treated with surgery!  Its very common in women with fertility issues.  I'm so glad that something was found and corrected rather than having "unexplained infertility".  Now we can move on to the next stages of this process.  I'm off work today & planning to go back Monday.  I want to say thank you for the sweet comments on the blog, the emails, texts, & phone calls from my friends and family!  It feels so good to hear that so many people care and support us!!  Love you all so much!

three incisions, and a little bloating from the CO, but not too bad

anyone else read this week that Oreos are as addictive as cocaine?! 

Two.  Tis the Season for Scary Movies...
If you’re anything like me then you LOVE this time of year for one simple reason… the horror movie marathons on AMC Fear Fest, Sci-Fi, & ABC Family.  The first time I saw a Freddy Krueger movie I was 3.  My dad had me watching all kinds of slasher flicks as a little kid so I’ve always loved them.  Classics like Halloween (favorite!), Friday the 13th, Saw, Hellraiser, Nightmare on Elm St, etc, to the extreme cheese like Sleepaway Camp, & Tales from the Crypt.  My college roommate and I would watch AMC for hours on end this time of year back in our apartment at ISU.  I’m really hoping to get to see Insidious 2, but I’m not sure that we’ll get there before it leaves theaters.  What is your favorite scary movie??

Three.  Fleece Lined Leggings
I happened upon fleece leggings last year via Pinterest, but every time I would find a pair they would be sold out (that’s the bad thing about Pinterest!) This year my favorite little sister in law texted me right away to tell me that Apricot Lane had them for $10 so I jumped for the phone and placed my order.  I just ordered an additional pair this week because I fell madly in love with them.  Leggings are the best, most comfortable article of clothing when they’re not fleece lined so imagine the heavenly feel of the ones that are.  Seriously feels about as close to sweatpants as possible, & if I can get away with feeling like I’m just short of wearing my actual pajama pants at work, then I’m one happy camper!  Bonus, Apricot Lane has them for $7.99 right now in multiple colors!

Four.  Relaxing Recovery Weekend
Really looking forward to being able to relax this weekend.  After having the laparoscopy done, I’m ready to just relax on the couch.  We were supposed to go to a haunted house in Peoria where you shoot paintballs at zombies (how freakin awesome is that?!) so I’m pretty bummed that we will be missing out on that, but I need to get as much rest as possible.  Might be going to get a pedicure tomorrow (I desperately need it) with my mom, and get out of the house for a bit.  Not sure how I will be feeling yet though.  We have a couples baby shower to attend on Sunday, I’m not even 100% sure I will be feeling up to going to that either, so I’m just playing everything by ear for now.

zombie killin'... so bummed we're missing this!

Five.  Interview
So Wednesday I had an interview for a different position within the company that I already work for, Ameren.  The downside to the job is that it’s in Peoria, which is an hour and a quarter to an hour and a half away from where we live.  I currently work 6:30-3:00, the best hours ever.  If I took the job in Peoria my hours would be 8-4:30 so I would leave around the same time I do now, but wouldn’t be home til around 6:00, a total turn off.  I decided that I would keep the interview to get practice for some opportunities that should be coming up next year.  I really do like what I do now, it always changes, the hours are awesome, it’s close to home, I have like the best insurance ever, & I get paid really really well (for an office job, the pay is definitely good!).  I could stay in this position and be comfortable for the rest of my life, but I feel like I definitely want to broaden my horizon & move up in the company.  Right now I am union and the position I am in has no other union positions that are office related, so I will probably end up going to a management position in the future. 

lots of this going on lately! :)

Happy weekend lovlies!  

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

adventures in conceiving

Well, tomorrow is my laparoscopy procedure.  I'm both nervous and excited, ready for it to be over with, & be home sleeping in my bed.  I have to be put under which I've only been one other time for my knee surgery and it's kind of a scary feeling.  I don't know that I'll be put under as deep as I was last time, I'm hoping for no breathing tube since it causes the rawest soar throat ever & no nausea after, although they did prescribe me some medication for that so I'm not sure what to expect.  

Basically what they will do tomorrow is make an incision in my belly button and two near my hip bones in order to use a small camera to go in and see if there is any scarring that could be preventing us from getting pregnant.  I'll spare the details of the extent of the surgery, but it is a pretty common procedure & they can correct the things that are able to be corrected.  This is a pretty huge step for us, although a common procedure (Dr. G said he does about 80 of these per year), I finally feel like we are making some REAL progress on this journey.  I'm trying to look at this as more of an adventure than anything else.  Positive vibes are so important, reducing negativity, including negative people, environments, and thoughts, sometimes easier said than done, is a key factor as well.  As stressful and frustrating as this has been, it must be this way for a reason.  In the words of Barney Stinson, challenge accepted!  Bring it on, I'm ready to see what our future has in store for us and this is just giving us a glimpse into what is to come.  

Fingers crossed that everything goes well tomorrow.  No food or drink after midnight tonight, but I have to take a pregnancy test (urine of course) first thing in the morning.  Leaving for Peoria tomorrow around 7:30 AM, surgery is scheduled for 11, hoping to be home by about 3 or so to sleep the rest of the afternoon away.  I made a big pot of chili yesterday so that Joe is fed for the next couple of nights and neither of us have to worry about cooking.  

The next step after the surgery is to start Clomid to increase the number of eggs & possibly IUI.  Lots to be thinking about and looking forward to!

Saturday, October 12, 2013

the truths about infertility

I just want to preface this by saying these are all my own feelings & truths that I've come to experience in this entire process.  I don't know anyone else personally who has struggled with it so I can't really compare if what I'm feeling is what anyone else with the same issues feels.  I have found some great ladies in blog land that I've been able to connect with who have made me feel very supported & I really appreciate that.  Of course my closest girls have been absolutely wonderful about asking questions & showing a genuine concern for us throughout this process & I am so thankful I have them in my life.

It's been a true roller coast ride of emotions throughout this entire process.  We literally started trying to get pregnant like THE day we were married.  That was over two years ago.  I wouldn't say that every single one of those 24 months were all-effort-forward attempts, but the majority of those months were & after reading that the average couple takes 4-6 months to conceive, I knew that there had to be something wrong with us after 6+ months of us trying.  After one year of not being able to conceive, a couple is considered infertile.  We are well beyond one year, many tests, & lots of anger & tears, but we are now moving forward at a very fast pace & we are more than ready to start a family.  

As a woman, it's a tough reality to accept that you  might not be able to conceive, or you may need some kind of intervention such as IUI or IVF or even just fertility drugs.  I am SOOOO thankful to modern medicine that we have these options out there, but as a woman, there is a sense of inadequacy if you're not able to conceive naturally.  You have to have faith that your partner won't resent you for things that you may not be able to do or provide for them.  Joe and I both knew that we wanted a family with each other.  He has always wanted kids, how awful would I feel if I wasn't able to be able to give Joe the family that he wanted, & I'm sure the feeling is mutual.  You don't know that your infertile until you start trying to have a baby and for us we didn't start that until after we were married.  I think the most important part of this entire process is to have a supportive partner.  Of course we don't always agree with each other about the decisions that we make, but we are  always supportive of each other no matter what.  We always make it a point to remind each other that we are on the same team no matter what & we really do practice that & believe in each other no matter what the situation is.  

We didn't have to think twice about it when Dr. G recommended the laparoscopy, we decided together that this would be the best option for us if we are serious about starting a family and we are.  Joe is more than willing to take time off work, unpaid, to come to the appointments with me, understand the process, take care of me when I'm home and in pain, & I would hope that any supportive husband would do the same for their wife.  

At 27 years old, the amount of pregnancy announcements that I've heard over the last couple years has been astronomical, but we are at that age.  Weddings & babies is about all I see on my Facebook feed anymore & sometimes it does hurt a bit.  One of my best friends is pregnant & I cannot wait to start shopping for her little bundle of joy!  I am beyond excited for her & I hope that we can experience pregnancy together.  One thing that I don't see enough of is those of us who are struggling with infertility aren't speaking up about it & supporting each other.  What I hope to achieve with my blog & sharing this extremely personal aspect of my life is that maybe another woman going through this can feel like they aren't alone & that there is a glimmer of hope.  Even though I'm not pregnant yet, I feel so much better about the entire situation after finally accepting reality and seeing the fertility doctor.  All of the culture surrounding infertility can be a really hard pill to swallow, but I'm so glad that we decided to bite the bullet & go for it.  

As personal as this might seem, I'm happy to be sharing this one for my own personal reasons, but for two so that others know that this is a real thing that happens to more people than you might know.  I can't wait to see what our future holds for us as we continue on this journey.

Friday, October 11, 2013

five on friday

One.  The Appointment
My intention was to write an entire post dedicated to the outcome of the appointment, but since I'm just finally getting time to get to my blog, I figured I'd just write about it here.  Wednesday was our first appointment with the fertility doctor.  We've been trying for two years to get pregnant, but after one year of trying, at our age, you're considered infertile, so we are definitely chomping at the bit to get some answers & move forward as quickly as we can.  The appointment was amazing.  Doctor G is so awesome, very knowledgeable, explained things well, & had a great sense of humor.  I felt a seriously huge weight that I didn't even realize was there really after meeting with him.  He went over the results of Joe's semen analysis that he had done last winter, all of his numbers rocked.  What we have decided on is that I will have a laparoscopy procedure done in order to check for scarring that is causing a disconnect between the follicle and the tube.  After that I will start Clomid to boost the production of more eggs, & then I will have an IUI procedure.  Basically artificial insemination.   We are moving along pretty quickly with this entire process and the doctor seems to think that we will be really successful with this.  He doesn't think that we will need to resort to IVF, but that could possibly be an option depending on how things go throughout this process.  I feel really really good about everything, very positive, & happy that we are finally moving forward after these long, very frustrating, & emotionally draining two years.  My biggest hope is that after the corrective surgery is done that we will be able to naturally conceive in the future.  Feeling very blessed this week!

lots of truth to this statement

Two.  New Snack Obsession
These Fiber One Lemon Bars are seriously amazeballs.  I love anything that is lemon flavored, Girl Scout cookies especially.  I saw these on fellow blogger Liz at Fitness Blondie's Instagram a couple days ago & had to try them!  Bonus, they have 20% of your daily fiber & they taste so good. 

Three. Lana Del Ray
I usually don’t switch my radio station (country) at work, but I had wanted to hear 1000 years after the wedding we went to this past weekend, spoiler alert, I never did get to hear it!  But I did hear Lana Del Ray, Summertime Sadness about 100 times this week.  I’ve had a crush on her for a while, but never really gave her music too much of a listen, totally glad that I switched stations for a bit.  Literally, as I started typing this, the song came on.  Gives me the chills, love songs like that. 

gorgeous & has rockin' music!

Four. The Walking Dead
Who else is flippin’ excited for The Walking Dead to start?  I really wanted to try and rewatch the last season on Nexflix, but we seriously have so many other shows going right now I just wouldn’t have time.  Seriously, New Girl, Brooklyn Nine-Nine, American Horror Story, Parenthood, Sons of Anarchy, How I Met Your Mother, and the list goes on.  Fall TV is killer right now. (no pun intended J)

<3 this!

Five.  Pumpkins.
If you read this post then you read about my pumpkin prankster who comes by at all hours of the night rearranging my pumpkins in completely ridiculous fashions.  I finally threw in the towel and moved the pumpkins to the back door so that I didn't have to keep rearranging them every day.  Seriously, the mailman would hate me if I left them the way that this prankster set them up.  A couple mornings-ago around 4:30 AM as I'm walking the dog out in front of the house freezing my ass off, I see a new pumpkin on my front steps.  I leave it exactly where it was left & don't touch or move it.  I still leave my other pumpkins at the back door.  Fast forward to yesterday morning, I'm outside at 4:30 AM with the dog freezing my ass off, I look over at my steps and what do I see, 3 new smaller pumpkins that spell out "BOO" one on each step.  They weren't there the night before.  I still cannot figure out who this pumpkin prankster is, but I do appreciate the apology in the form of a couple new cute little pumpkins.  I had small inkling of who it might be, but now I'm really not sure!!  Oh, & yes, I decided to just leave them as they were left when they were dropped off, we shall see what happens!

ps. my mums are awful looking!  so disappointed in them, watered them & they got
some good rain & they look terrible!  throwing them out this weekend :(

Friday, October 04, 2013

five on friday

One. Back on the Road
Finally.  After the awful appointment I had last week (read about it here!), I finally heard from Dr. G’s office & have an appointment on Wednesday in Peoria.  Joe and I are both going. They said it’s about an hour to an hour and a half long appointment, lots of information to take in & possibly some blood work or tests ordered on that day. I really cannot believe that we are coming to this point. I never thought that we would be struggling with this, but such is life. I have to remember that it’s only making me stronger & will make me appreciate pregnancy and parenthood that much more. I've been lucky enough to find a couple ladies in blogland that have been real inspirations to me, especially Joy at Inner Joy. Reading about her journey & seeing her positive comments on some of my posts has been very reassuring for me.

easier said than done

Two. Lipstick

I’ve noticed a couple different blog posts about lip stick lately (Natasha at Hello! Happiness & Leslie at A Blonde Ambition) have both had recent lipstick posts. I’ve always been a huge fan of lip gloss, in fact, I kind of have a lip gloss hoarding problem. I got a lipstick from Sodorstrom Skin Institute last year & it’s a really pretty, darker fall color. I don’t wear anything too noticeable to work because I work with a bunch of guys who like to point things like that out, so I’m pretty subtle about my shad of lip wear. While browsing through Target last week I found a really pretty shade of L'Oreal Colour Riche in Blushing Sequin & I love it. It’s so pretty & fun. Perfect date night or girls-night-out-on-the-town color.

my ungodly collection of lip glosses... & yes, that gloss with the blue glare, it lights up & has a mirror on it

this pic does not do this color justice!

Three. October

I wonder how many of us will have October for one of our Five On Friday picks? October is one of my favorite months. I love Halloween, it’s a close second to Christmas. I used to consider it my favorite holiday, but now that I’ve gotten older, Christmas has become my #1 favorite holiday. Now that it’s October is completely appropriate for Halloween decorations & bowls of candy throughout the house. Also, candy corn filled hurricane candle holders will make their comeback this weekend as the centerpiece on my dining room table.

Four. Final season of HIMYM

Sad, but true, this is the last season of How I Met Your Mother.  We have really come to love this show.  We watched the first 6 or so seasons on Netflix a couple years ago when we lived in La Salle.  I can’t believe the show is coming to an end, but I’m excited for Ted to finally meet the love of his life!

Five.  Fall Fingers & Toes
I found two great colors, Essie's Ladylike & OPI I Saw...U Saw...We Saw...Warsaw.  Even though they're two completely opposite colors, I think they compliment each other well.  I've got the blue on my toes and the mauve on my fingers.  My nails aren't real pretty, I keep them short, & I constantly pick at them, I used to bite them, thankfully I don't do that anymore, but a more subtle color compliments my nails much better so I usually try to keep something neutral or light on my fingers & go more bold on my toes.  

Happy Weekend Blogland!

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