Well, we’re already moving right along for our next FET! I am a person with very low patience so for me, moving this quickly is just what I want. The plan for our first FET is to start BCP tonight. I will take that until August 10th. I’m also supposed to start Lupron injections a.k.a. suppression shots on August 7th. I will take these for roughly 19 days. My transfer is scheduled for September 4th, about six weeks away. I am excited that we have a plan. If you've been reading my blog for some time now, you know that I’m all about having a plan, but never expecting to stick to it. Things change, and I learned to accept that a long time ago. Luckily these types of plans really don’t have much room for adjustment. They’re pretty strict on what I need to do and when I need to do it. I will have a baseline ultrasound on August 15th to make sure everything looks good & that suppression is working as it should. At the speed that 90 days went by, these next 38 should be a breeze.
I am happy that I will be able to enjoy a little bit more of summer. One thing that we should be able to do for sure this year is our annual Labor Day camping trip that we take on the bike. We will take all of our camping gear, hop on the bike, and head northwest for some camping in the Galena area. It’s beautiful and we've been doing this for the last 4 years. It’s one of my favorite things that Joe and I do together. I remember last year riding up in New Glarus, Wisconsin thinking, if I’m not pregnant by this time next year, I’m buying myself my Indian Scout… well, here we are a year later & let’s be realistic, I’m not going to buy a motorcycle, I’m going to continue to try and get pregnant. The one thing that hasn't changed is the desire to have a baby of our own. If anything that desire has only gotten stronger.
By the time we do our transfer we will be one month shy of TTC for 3 years. It really hurts my heart to say that, to type it, read it, & comprehend that statement. THREE YEARS. I know there are so many out there who have been trying two or three times that, but it is still a harsh reality for me. So much so that I don’t know what I’ll do when I actually do become pregnant. It will take the entire pregnancy in order for me to believe that it’s actually true. I’ll have to see & hold that baby in my arms before my mind will be able to accept reality I’m sure. I can’t wait for that day.
So our plan is to transfer one single embryo again. This is a very personal choice for each and every couple going through IVF. I know in my heart this is the right choice for us. For me, the risk is just too great with multiple pregnancies, although even with the transfer of just one embryo, cells can split & multiples can happen. Jessah @ Dreaming of Dimples said it best; we want a healthy baby, not just a pregnancy. If our doctor ever recommended that we become more aggressive and transfer two, then we would take that into consideration, but at this time one is the magic number.
Unfortunately, this time around I’m already planning for failure. I haven’t quite gotten back my optimism towards this cycle yet, but it will come in time. That BFN is just still too fresh in my mind for me to have my attitude turned all the way back around. I know that we will never give up this fight for our baby. This is just a new chapter in our growing book of getting pregnant. For the next six weeks I’m going to focus on the progress of the house, and enjoy the rest of my summer. We are so incredibly blessed that we are building our house and just enjoying life in general. I know September will be here in the blink of an eye, so I’m going to do the best I can to have fun & enjoy what’s left of the summer.