I know that posts have been scarce here as of late, but a cut back on social media has been in effect since my transfer on 11/11. I thought that I would at least give an update as to what our potential plan is going forward. After finding out that another seemingly perfect cycle failed, I decided that we needed, first of all, a break. I've been on fertility drugs for about a year now, even during those lulls I was on BCP so my body deserves a break. I really want to focus on getting to Curves 3+ times a week and trying to eat as healthy as possible during the holiday season. I plan to take a break from all infertility treatment at least until the end of this year which is about 5 more weeks, and maybe even longer if we feel like it’s necessary.
After I told Joe about our negative test result, he immediately suggested a weekend getaway. Even a midst building a house, we need this time together. Living at my parents, going through infertility treatment, building a house, and Joe working long hours six days a week has not done anything for our marriage. We are not in a bad place; we are just in a slump of exhaustion and frustration. We are ready to be in our own home but since that’s not quite possible yet, a weekend getaway will definitely suffice. This will be our Christmas present to each other, and it will be worth every penny that we spend. We leave Friday December 12th and are heading to Wisconsin Dells to stay at the Chula Vista resort for the whole weekend! I cannot wait!
This past weekend we went to see Eric Church, Dwight Yocum, and Halestorm on Friday. It was so fun, it was the 5th time that we've seen Eric Church and he never disappoints. I definitely overindulged in alcohol, but it was nice to let loose. Saturday Joe and I went to our favorite place, Bartley's. It was a fun weekend and I already feel like we are in a better place together.
This past weekend we went to see Eric Church, Dwight Yocum, and Halestorm on Friday. It was so fun, it was the 5th time that we've seen Eric Church and he never disappoints. I definitely overindulged in alcohol, but it was nice to let loose. Saturday Joe and I went to our favorite place, Bartley's. It was a fun weekend and I already feel like we are in a better place together.
As far as our next steps to making a baby, maybe a month or two of the good old fashioned way of getting pregnant, but I definitely want a second opinion. I've decided I'd to see Dr. Ricardo Loret De Mola. He practices at SIU School of Medicine in Springfield Illinois. Although this will be a 2 hour trip for us one way, he is the #1 rated RE in the state, he has the best success rates and has great reviews. I was given his information by a friend of mine who recently got pregnant via IVF (1st cycle!) and is treated by him, she highly recommends him so I think he’s going to be the one we seek treatment from. I really hate the thought of leaving the doctor that I’m currently seeing, but I feel like a fresh perspective might be what we need for success. I still need to check to see if he is covered by my insurance so fingers crossed!
What I thought would be the easiest failure to accept has inevitably become the hardest. I thought, I've handled 2 failed IVF cycles and 2 (ultimately) failed IUIs, what’s another? But all this failure has done was raise more questions as to why, why isn't this working for us? As far as we've been tested, we have nothing medically wrong with either of us. Although I have not been tested for a Vitamin D deficiency or any immunity issues, all of the normal infertility tests that are done have shown nothing. It makes things even more frustrating. And worst of all, it makes me question whether or not this will ever happen for us and thinking of the possibility that it won’t is probably the scariest thought I've ever had. I’m hoping that someone or something can help prove me wrong.