Friday, January 31, 2014

Five on Friday

One.  IUI Round 3.
Today is the day I start injections for our 3rd IUI attempt.  Last time around I stim’d using 75mg of Follistem for 5 days, this time I’m using 100mg of Follistem for 7 days.  We’re hoping more meds for a couple more days will give us more follies.  It’s true, you only need one egg & one sperm to make a baby, but the more eggs you have the better chance a sperm has to fertilize one.  I feel very confident and relaxed this time.  What I learned last time around is to just live my normal life as though I’m not pregnant yet, that seemed to help a lot.  If I can go into it with the same mindset as last time, & with the help of a little more medicine, I’m thinking that this will be it.  There is always a chance that it won’t work, but I’m going to keep an optimistic outlook & hope for the best.


 Two.  Blessings.
On Tuesday after our appointment I was at home preparing dinner & just thinking about everything that we have going on in our lives.  Big things like planning for our house to be built, settling our lawsuit, new job opportunities, possibly getting pregnant, and smaller things like getting our tax return (let’s face it we all love getting that!)& getting fresh blonde highlights in my hair.  Even though we have to go through all of this infertility stuff, we could be going through so much worse.  We have so many great things going on in our lives right now & sometimes it is hard to focus on the blessings we have rather than the burdens that we have. 



Three.  Simply Balanced.
I found these Simply Balanced Peach Mango and Cranberry Cherry sparkling cocktails at Target on Saturday & bonus, they were 2 for $5.  I love a little carbonation, but I really try not to drink soda so these are perfect.  There aren't a ton of ingredients in them either; just a bunch of different fruit concentrates.  They probably aren't the healthiest thing I could be drinking, but they sure are yummy!

Four. Progress on our Plans
Monday after work I met Joe down at Maze Lumber and we got to go over our house plans and start a cost estimate on exterior materials for the house.  I have to admit, I thought I knew everything that I wanted, but I quickly realize I had A LOT more to think about than I could’ve imagined.  I never gave interior doors much thought until he asked me if I wanted, 4 panel, 6 panel, or 3 panel, & once I decided on how many panels I wanted I needed to decide on colors & material.  It was a bit overwhelming, but it was also a lot of fun.  Our material estimate will include roof, windows, fireplace, front door, lumber, insulation, etc.  I already know I will have sticker shock, but I’m getting more and more excited about this whole process.  Our next step will be to meet with the kitchen/bathroom designer to start talking about layout for those rooms!  I can’t wait!! The kitchen and master bathroom are the two most important rooms in the house so they have to be amazing!

this will be my front door!  gorgeous!

I'm really big on making sure that I reply to every single comment that I get on the blog.  I feel like if someone has taken time to stop by and make a comment, then at the least, they deserve a thank you! Unfortunately, there are many bloggers are out there who are "no-reply" bloggers.  In a nutshell that means there is no way for me to respond to your comment & you being able to see it.  Sometimes I'll type out an entire response, send it, then realize it's now lost in blogger limbo because that blogger is a "no-reply".  I urge you to click on this link and fix this immediately so that I can respond to all of your wonderful comments!!

Happy Friday Friends!

Five on Friday

One.  IUI Round 3.
Today is the day I start injections for our 3rd IUI attempt.  Last time around I stim’d using 75mg of Follistem for 5 days, this time I’m using 100mg of Follistem for 7 days.  We’re hoping more meds for a couple more days will give us more follies.  It’s true, you only need one egg & one sperm to make a baby, but the more eggs you have the better chance a sperm has to fertilize one.  I feel very confident and relaxed this time.  What I learned last time around is to just live my normal life as though I’m not pregnant yet, that seemed to help a lot.  If I can go into it with the same mindset as last time, & with the help of a little more medicine, I’m thinking that this will be it.  There is always a chance that it won’t work, but I’m going to keep an optimistic outlook & hope for the best.


 Two.  Blessings.
On Tuesday after our appointment I was at home preparing dinner & just thinking about everything that we have going on in our lives.  Big things like planning for our house to be built, settling our lawsuit, new job opportunities, possibly getting pregnant, and smaller things like getting our tax return (let’s face it we all love getting that!)& getting fresh blonde highlights in my hair.  Even though we have to go through all of this infertility stuff, we could be going through so much worse.  We have so many great things going on in our lives right now & sometimes it is hard to focus on the blessings we have rather than the burdens that we have. 



Three.  Simply Balanced.
I found these Simply Balanced Peach Mango and Cranberry Cherry sparkling cocktails at Target on Saturday & bonus, they were 2 for $5.  I love a little carbonation, but I really try not to drink soda so these are perfect.  There aren't a ton of ingredients in them either; just a bunch of different fruit concentrates.  They probably aren't the healthiest thing I could be drinking, but they sure are yummy!

Four. Progress on our Plans
Monday after work I met Joe down at Maze Lumber and we got to go over our house plans and start a cost estimate on exterior materials for the house.  I have to admit, I thought I knew everything that I wanted, but I quickly realize I had A LOT more to think about than I could’ve imagined.  I never gave interior doors much thought until he asked me if I wanted, 4 panel, 6 panel, or 3 panel, & once I decided on how many panels I wanted I needed to decide on colors & material.  It was a bit overwhelming, but it was also a lot of fun.  Our material estimate will include roof, windows, fireplace, front door, lumber, insulation, etc.  I already know I will have sticker shock, but I’m getting more and more excited about this whole process.  Our next step will be to meet with the kitchen/bathroom designer to start talking about layout for those rooms!  I can’t wait!! The kitchen and master bathroom are the two most important rooms in the house so they have to be amazing!

this will be my front door!  gorgeous!

I'm really big on making sure that I reply to every single comment that I get on the blog.  I feel like if someone has taken time to stop by and make a comment, then at the least, they deserve a thank you! Unfortunately, there are many bloggers are out there who are "no-reply" bloggers.  In a nutshell that means there is no way for me to respond to your comment & you being able to see it.  Sometimes I'll type out an entire response, send it, then realize it's now lost in blogger limbo because that blogger is a "no-reply".  I urge you to click on this link and fix this immediately so that I can respond to all of your wonderful comments!!

Happy Friday Friends!

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

It's the Little Things Link-Up



I'm joining Ashley @ Words About Waverly for the It's the Little Things link-up and I'm so excited.  What a wonderful idea, I love link-ups like this where you really see a huge variety of content & I can't wait to see what my fellow bloggers will be sharing.  Remembering "the little things" in life is what sometimes keeps us grounded and humble so I am so excited to be participating!

When I started looking back at my pictures for some inspiration for the link-up, it didn't take me long to find a very truly "little" thing.  

If you follow me on Instagram (@lenaridley) or Facebook, then you saw this amazing picture I shared last week.  I was leaving work & the snow was just starting, but coming down pretty good.  I got in my car & looked down & there it was, this absolutely flawless snowflake on my coat.  I couldn't believe it.  I snapped this pic, shared it, & got a lot of hopeful comments about it being some kind of sign!  It's truly amazing how something soo tiny can be so perfect, and no two are alike.  I had another few on my jacket that were visible & they were all different.  

I thought I would share along with this, this amazing article about Russian photographer Alexey Kljatov who duct taped a lens to his DIY camera & was able to take absolutely stunning photos of real snowflakes.  It's almost hard to believe that these are real, they look like perfect glass sculptures created by an artist.  Here are a few of his photos.  They are breathtaking & perfect specimen of the true beauty of nature.  


Remembering to embrace the little things is sometimes hard to remember to do, sometimes we get so caught up in what's going on in our day to day lives we forget about how much pleasure and ease something so small can bring to us.  On that note, we had our baseline ultrasound yesterday & we have a few little follicles ready to be stimulated so Friday starts 100mg of Follistem for 7 days.  They up'd my dosage by 25mg and I'm stimulating for three days longer than I did the first time.  Last time I had two eggs, this time he wants to see more.  We will be having the IUI next Saturday in Rockford or the following Monday in Peoria!

It's the Little Things Link-Up



I'm joining Ashley @ Words About Waverly for the It's the Little Things link-up and I'm so excited.  What a wonderful idea, I love link-ups like this where you really see a huge variety of content & I can't wait to see what my fellow bloggers will be sharing.  Remembering "the little things" in life is what sometimes keeps us grounded and humble so I am so excited to be participating!

When I started looking back at my pictures for some inspiration for the link-up, it didn't take me long to find a very truly "little" thing.  

If you follow me on Instagram (@lenaridley) or Facebook, then you saw this amazing picture I shared last week.  I was leaving work & the snow was just starting, but coming down pretty good.  I got in my car & looked down & there it was, this absolutely flawless snowflake on my coat.  I couldn't believe it.  I snapped this pic, shared it, & got a lot of hopeful comments about it being some kind of sign!  It's truly amazing how something soo tiny can be so perfect, and no two are alike.  I had another few on my jacket that were visible & they were all different.  

I thought I would share along with this, this amazing article about Russian photographer Alexey Kljatov who duct taped a lens to his DIY camera & was able to take absolutely stunning photos of real snowflakes.  It's almost hard to believe that these are real, they look like perfect glass sculptures created by an artist.  Here are a few of his photos.  They are breathtaking & perfect specimen of the true beauty of nature.  


Remembering to embrace the little things is sometimes hard to remember to do, sometimes we get so caught up in what's going on in our day to day lives we forget about how much pleasure and ease something so small can bring to us.  On that note, we had our baseline ultrasound yesterday & we have a few little follicles ready to be stimulated so Friday starts 100mg of Follistem for 7 days.  They up'd my dosage by 25mg and I'm stimulating for three days longer than I did the first time.  Last time I had two eggs, this time he wants to see more.  We will be having the IUI next Saturday in Rockford or the following Monday in Peoria!

Sunday, January 26, 2014

weekend recap

Happy Sunday!!  Here's a little inspiration for you courtesy of the Rhonna Design App!



Wow, this weekend flew by!  I'm happy because Tuesday is our next appointment & I feel like we had a good break, time to heal, & time to get my body primed for our next round. Two weeks does feel like an eternity in the infertility world, but it does pass & I try to remember not to wish my life away.

got the last of my meds in the mail friday, the trigger shot, Ovidrel

I've been sick pretty much all week.  I never get sick, but maybe once a year in the winter so I was due for a round of something.  It's either a sinus infection or a bad cold, or maybe both.  I can't hear, my head is so congested, & nothing seems to be working.  I'm hoping it's over soon.  Friday turned out to be a pretty good day.  It started out annoyingly frustrating at work, but it ended with us FINALLY SETTLING our lawsuit from the motorcycle accident.  We're coming up on two years April 1st & I am relieved we are finally closing this chapter.  We need to iron out some minor details, but we are pretty much done with all of the legal stuff and I'm happy we aren't having to go to court.  I ended up grocery shopping Friday afternoon and picked up some steaks & my friend Courtney @ Keystroke Journaling reminded me of how much I enjoy jug wine, especially Carlo Rossi (my maiden name is Rossi!) so I grabbed some Paisano (a semi-dry red) to go with the steaks.  I got a facial done at Skin Dimensions, it was much needed & my skin felt sooo amazing & full of moisture which has been pretty much non-existent this entire winter, even with the humidifier running all night, there is a ton of static in the house & zero humidity.  Winter, I am so over you.

one of the benefits of being on crutches was getting to use the handicapped bathroom & meeting
Blackberry Smoke at the Eric Church concert because of it! VIP!  Hopefully I'll never need them again!


Saturday Jessica, my mom, & my mom's best friend Beth and I went to Jalapenos for lunch & margaritas. We decided a wine taste was in order & a beer since Beth doesn't drink wine so we went to Duffy's for Moscow mules, then headed to August Hill for a complimentary taste.  I love being in the wine club, one free taste per day and you can bring a guest! My lunch date turned into an all-afternoon booze fest which was fun.  I got home about 4 and plopped on the couch for the rest of the night.  I was graced by a visit from my bestie, Jodie.  She and Jon came home with the kiddos and they were on their way to dinner, just the two of them, so they came by to visit for a bit.  It was nice catching up.  Haven't seen her since Christmas!

a little afternoon delight


Today is going to be a lazy day full of Dexter & snuggles on the couch with the pup.  I did start laundry at 7AM this morning so I will get a few things accomplished.  Not much else is going on.  Getting ready to start a new week & the last week of the month already, so crazy.  Tomorrow we go the Maze to start our material list which I'm excited about & Tuesday is my appointment for the baseline ultrasound.  I assume I will be starting injections a few days later.  Hope everyone is surviving the "polar vortex", looking forward to a HIGH of -4 tomorrow.  If you follow me on Instagram (@lenaridley) then you saw how nostalgic I was being this week, taking myself back to warm days in Bermuda on the beach in a swim suit.  Happy Sunday!


weekend recap

Happy Sunday!!  Here's a little inspiration for you courtesy of the Rhonna Design App!



Wow, this weekend flew by!  I'm happy because Tuesday is our next appointment & I feel like we had a good break, time to heal, & time to get my body primed for our next round. Two weeks does feel like an eternity in the infertility world, but it does pass & I try to remember not to wish my life away.

got the last of my meds in the mail friday, the trigger shot, Ovidrel

I've been sick pretty much all week.  I never get sick, but maybe once a year in the winter so I was due for a round of something.  It's either a sinus infection or a bad cold, or maybe both.  I can't hear, my head is so congested, & nothing seems to be working.  I'm hoping it's over soon.  Friday turned out to be a pretty good day.  It started out annoyingly frustrating at work, but it ended with us FINALLY SETTLING our lawsuit from the motorcycle accident.  We're coming up on two years April 1st & I am relieved we are finally closing this chapter.  We need to iron out some minor details, but we are pretty much done with all of the legal stuff and I'm happy we aren't having to go to court.  I ended up grocery shopping Friday afternoon and picked up some steaks & my friend Courtney @ Keystroke Journaling reminded me of how much I enjoy jug wine, especially Carlo Rossi (my maiden name is Rossi!) so I grabbed some Paisano (a semi-dry red) to go with the steaks.  I got a facial done at Skin Dimensions, it was much needed & my skin felt sooo amazing & full of moisture which has been pretty much non-existent this entire winter, even with the humidifier running all night, there is a ton of static in the house & zero humidity.  Winter, I am so over you.

one of the benefits of being on crutches was getting to use the handicapped bathroom & meeting
Blackberry Smoke at the Eric Church concert because of it! VIP!  Hopefully I'll never need them again!


Saturday Jessica, my mom, & my mom's best friend Beth and I went to Jalapenos for lunch & margaritas. We decided a wine taste was in order & a beer since Beth doesn't drink wine so we went to Duffy's for Moscow mules, then headed to August Hill for a complimentary taste.  I love being in the wine club, one free taste per day and you can bring a guest! My lunch date turned into an all-afternoon booze fest which was fun.  I got home about 4 and plopped on the couch for the rest of the night.  I was graced by a visit from my bestie, Jodie.  She and Jon came home with the kiddos and they were on their way to dinner, just the two of them, so they came by to visit for a bit.  It was nice catching up.  Haven't seen her since Christmas!

a little afternoon delight


Today is going to be a lazy day full of Dexter & snuggles on the couch with the pup.  I did start laundry at 7AM this morning so I will get a few things accomplished.  Not much else is going on.  Getting ready to start a new week & the last week of the month already, so crazy.  Tomorrow we go the Maze to start our material list which I'm excited about & Tuesday is my appointment for the baseline ultrasound.  I assume I will be starting injections a few days later.  Hope everyone is surviving the "polar vortex", looking forward to a HIGH of -4 tomorrow.  If you follow me on Instagram (@lenaridley) then you saw how nostalgic I was being this week, taking myself back to warm days in Bermuda on the beach in a swim suit.  Happy Sunday!


Friday, January 24, 2014

Five on Friday

warning: this is a bit lengthy, but it's been a great week!

One.  Our house plans!
Yep, last Friday afternoon we got our house plans back and they are so amazing.  It's awesome to see Joe's drawing be professionally done.  We got a floor plan & an exterior, front view of the house.  We are very excited to see this all start really coming to life.  We are at 1998 square feet so it came out a tad bigger than what we had originally calculated, but as long as we stay under 2000, we are happy.  We are working on window & door placement now & picking out flooring & other materials so that we can get a cost estimate started.  I am planning on starting a weekly series for the different rooms of the house & what my ideas are, I just need to get a little more organized.  I started breaking up my pin boards this weekend, dividing them into rooms, & materials.  More to come on that.

sorry for the crappy photo quality, these were taken on my phone & not taken with much effort. 

Two. Beauty Blender
I finally got my hands on one of these.  I've been wanting one since the summer but never did get one.  Now Skin Dimensions is carrying them & this kit was a great investment.  Two beauty blenders plus a weekly cleanser.  They're so cute & fun, plus they really do blend foundation fabulously.  Highly recommended!



Three. Class Reunion Plans
10 years! Wow, I cannot believe we graduated from good ol' LP 10 years ago! Typically, the class president is who kind of chairs the committee for a class reunion. Unfortunately, our class president, Andrew died unexpectedly in 2006. He has been gone for 7 years & he is missed by so many. He was in my social circle & was the best friend of my high school boyfriend so I knew him really well. Another one of my classmates has taken a ton of initiative to get the proverbial ball rolling on plans, her and I were both on student board so we are going to be reaching out to form a committee & see what we can come up with. Still just can't believe it's been 10 years!



Four. Easiest cheese breadsticks ever!
I needed an additional carb to go with my already carb-packed ravs (tortellini’s) and broth. A buttered slice of Italian bread is probably the best accompaniment, but I didn’t feel like going to the store & was determined that I could whip something up with ingredients I already had at home. I had a pizza dough (Pillsbury) in my fridge & knew I could probably do something with that so I rummaged through my spice cabinet and here is what I came up with:

1 refrigerated pizza dough
4 tbsp olive oil
Garlic powder (to taste, I LOVE garlic, the more the better)
1 bag of mozzarella & provolone mix
Parmesan cheese
Oregano

Mix the olive oil & garlic powder in a small bowl and brush onto the precooked dough (precook for 5-7 minutes). Sprinkle (yes, I used the entire bag) the mozzarella & provolone blend (or any Italian blend of cheeses) over the dough, sprinkle Parmesan onto the dough, sprinkle desired amount of oregano onto the dough, bake for an additional 10 minutes & voila! Cheesy, garlic-y, goodness! Easy, quick, & you could use pizza sauce to dip them in, it was practically a meal in itself!

again, bad quality.  but you get the idea!  i'm not a professional by any means.

Five. New Sponsors
I would like to introduce everyone to my first new sponsor, she is a hardworking wife & mother of two who is growing her business. Her name is Amanda and she sells the It Works! system. You have probably seen and heard about “those crazy wraps” that you can use practically anywhere on your body that help to reduce fat. She was kind enough to send me a wrap of my own to try. I was skeptical at first, but was pleasantly surprised at how well it worked. I urge you to check out her website. There are lots of other products too like skin care products, vitamins, & other nutrition products. Keep an eye out for a giveaway in the future as well! 



My second new sponsor is Rhonna Farrer from Rhonna Designs (button coming soon!).  You have seen some of my images I created using her app on the blog & if you follow me on Instagram (@lenaridley), then you've definitely seen her amazing app at work.  What I love about it is that she provides you with some awesome backgrounds & very inspirational quotes, but also gives you the freedom to use your own photos and your own text if you want. I've had a ton of fun with this app & I am so excited to start promoting her on the blog!  She is so talented. You can check out her website and her blog & be sure to check out her Instagram (@rhonnafarrer) she just shared her amazing story of how she got started in the business.  She really followed her heart & her dream & that is very admirable.  
If you are interested in promotional/sponsorship opportunities, please feel free to email me at eridley92411@gmail.com

Five on Friday

warning: this is a bit lengthy, but it's been a great week!

One.  Our house plans!
Yep, last Friday afternoon we got our house plans back and they are so amazing.  It's awesome to see Joe's drawing be professionally done.  We got a floor plan & an exterior, front view of the house.  We are very excited to see this all start really coming to life.  We are at 1998 square feet so it came out a tad bigger than what we had originally calculated, but as long as we stay under 2000, we are happy.  We are working on window & door placement now & picking out flooring & other materials so that we can get a cost estimate started.  I am planning on starting a weekly series for the different rooms of the house & what my ideas are, I just need to get a little more organized.  I started breaking up my pin boards this weekend, dividing them into rooms, & materials.  More to come on that.

sorry for the crappy photo quality, these were taken on my phone & not taken with much effort. 

Two. Beauty Blender
I finally got my hands on one of these.  I've been wanting one since the summer but never did get one.  Now Skin Dimensions is carrying them & this kit was a great investment.  Two beauty blenders plus a weekly cleanser.  They're so cute & fun, plus they really do blend foundation fabulously.  Highly recommended!



Three. Class Reunion Plans
10 years! Wow, I cannot believe we graduated from good ol' LP 10 years ago! Typically, the class president is who kind of chairs the committee for a class reunion. Unfortunately, our class president, Andrew died unexpectedly in 2006. He has been gone for 7 years & he is missed by so many. He was in my social circle & was the best friend of my high school boyfriend so I knew him really well. Another one of my classmates has taken a ton of initiative to get the proverbial ball rolling on plans, her and I were both on student board so we are going to be reaching out to form a committee & see what we can come up with. Still just can't believe it's been 10 years!



Four. Easiest cheese breadsticks ever!
I needed an additional carb to go with my already carb-packed ravs (tortellini’s) and broth. A buttered slice of Italian bread is probably the best accompaniment, but I didn’t feel like going to the store & was determined that I could whip something up with ingredients I already had at home. I had a pizza dough (Pillsbury) in my fridge & knew I could probably do something with that so I rummaged through my spice cabinet and here is what I came up with:

1 refrigerated pizza dough
4 tbsp olive oil
Garlic powder (to taste, I LOVE garlic, the more the better)
1 bag of mozzarella & provolone mix
Parmesan cheese
Oregano

Mix the olive oil & garlic powder in a small bowl and brush onto the precooked dough (precook for 5-7 minutes). Sprinkle (yes, I used the entire bag) the mozzarella & provolone blend (or any Italian blend of cheeses) over the dough, sprinkle Parmesan onto the dough, sprinkle desired amount of oregano onto the dough, bake for an additional 10 minutes & voila! Cheesy, garlic-y, goodness! Easy, quick, & you could use pizza sauce to dip them in, it was practically a meal in itself!

again, bad quality.  but you get the idea!  i'm not a professional by any means.

Five. New Sponsors
I would like to introduce everyone to my first new sponsor, she is a hardworking wife & mother of two who is growing her business. Her name is Amanda and she sells the It Works! system. You have probably seen and heard about “those crazy wraps” that you can use practically anywhere on your body that help to reduce fat. She was kind enough to send me a wrap of my own to try. I was skeptical at first, but was pleasantly surprised at how well it worked. I urge you to check out her website. There are lots of other products too like skin care products, vitamins, & other nutrition products. Keep an eye out for a giveaway in the future as well! 



My second new sponsor is Rhonna Farrer from Rhonna Designs (button coming soon!).  You have seen some of my images I created using her app on the blog & if you follow me on Instagram (@lenaridley), then you've definitely seen her amazing app at work.  What I love about it is that she provides you with some awesome backgrounds & very inspirational quotes, but also gives you the freedom to use your own photos and your own text if you want. I've had a ton of fun with this app & I am so excited to start promoting her on the blog!  She is so talented. You can check out her website and her blog & be sure to check out her Instagram (@rhonnafarrer) she just shared her amazing story of how she got started in the business.  She really followed her heart & her dream & that is very admirable.  
If you are interested in promotional/sponsorship opportunities, please feel free to email me at eridley92411@gmail.com

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

waiting is the worst!


If there is one thing I can tell you that truly sucks about infertility (besides infertility itself!) is the waiting. We are in quite the lull right now. We got our BFN on 1/6. I was told I would need to wait until AF showed up again before we could start follicle stimulation. I thought last week that I had so we scheduled our baseline ultrasound only to find out that I still had, what they refer to as, “cysts” or old follicles. They put me on the pill for TWO WEEKS (damn the dreaded 2ww!) and rescheduled another baseline for January 28th.

All of the waiting that comes with being treated for infertility is one of the biggest struggles and I know I'm not alone in thinking this. You wait to have an ultrasound, then you wait to start your meds, then you wait to have the procedure done, you wait to take your pregnancy test, you wait for the doctor’s office to call you with results! It is sooo much waiting. It’s especially hard for someone like me with ZERO freaking patience. This process has actually taught me a lot about what being patient actually is. It also has taught me a lot about “gravity issues” or things that are completely out of my own control, another foreign concept to me. I am type A, like 100%... I am unbelievably organized, I like plans, & I’m very rarely sporadic. It’s just not me. It has been completely out of my realm to be going through something so significant that I have really no control over. I compare it to not having control over your own wedding planning or some other extremely important life event. My body is in control & there ain't a damn thing I can do about it!

a good reminder :)

I never would have thought that I would be counting down days to start injections. Who does that? I’ll tell you who does, #infertilitysisters, we get excited when Follistem & Ovidrel comes in the mail. We take pictures and videos of how we inject ourselves then post it on social media for the entire world to see. I know it might seem strange to some, but it really does bring us together. There is a whole community of us. We love to support each other, we ask for advice, we post our current stats, we post pictures of our ovaries, we post tons of quotes, & I don’t think that most of us really care what anyone thinks. It’s our lives, our whole lives, it’s all you think about. So many people will say, you just need to distract yourself with something else, like building your house, & I say, there is no way I can be distracted from this, it’s on my mind all day, it makes waiting even worse.

last round, IUI meds

So for those wondering what’s going on, I’m still taking the pill (seems counter intuitive right?!) at least until Monday. Tuesday is my baseline, then hopefully next week I will be starting injections and we will be well on our way to IUI # 3. For now I am just trying to take things one day at a time, keeping busy & trying to keep my eyes off of the calendar.

waiting is the worst!


If there is one thing I can tell you that truly sucks about infertility (besides infertility itself!) is the waiting. We are in quite the lull right now. We got our BFN on 1/6. I was told I would need to wait until AF showed up again before we could start follicle stimulation. I thought last week that I had so we scheduled our baseline ultrasound only to find out that I still had, what they refer to as, “cysts” or old follicles. They put me on the pill for TWO WEEKS (damn the dreaded 2ww!) and rescheduled another baseline for January 28th.

All of the waiting that comes with being treated for infertility is one of the biggest struggles and I know I'm not alone in thinking this. You wait to have an ultrasound, then you wait to start your meds, then you wait to have the procedure done, you wait to take your pregnancy test, you wait for the doctor’s office to call you with results! It is sooo much waiting. It’s especially hard for someone like me with ZERO freaking patience. This process has actually taught me a lot about what being patient actually is. It also has taught me a lot about “gravity issues” or things that are completely out of my own control, another foreign concept to me. I am type A, like 100%... I am unbelievably organized, I like plans, & I’m very rarely sporadic. It’s just not me. It has been completely out of my realm to be going through something so significant that I have really no control over. I compare it to not having control over your own wedding planning or some other extremely important life event. My body is in control & there ain't a damn thing I can do about it!

a good reminder :)

I never would have thought that I would be counting down days to start injections. Who does that? I’ll tell you who does, #infertilitysisters, we get excited when Follistem & Ovidrel comes in the mail. We take pictures and videos of how we inject ourselves then post it on social media for the entire world to see. I know it might seem strange to some, but it really does bring us together. There is a whole community of us. We love to support each other, we ask for advice, we post our current stats, we post pictures of our ovaries, we post tons of quotes, & I don’t think that most of us really care what anyone thinks. It’s our lives, our whole lives, it’s all you think about. So many people will say, you just need to distract yourself with something else, like building your house, & I say, there is no way I can be distracted from this, it’s on my mind all day, it makes waiting even worse.

last round, IUI meds

So for those wondering what’s going on, I’m still taking the pill (seems counter intuitive right?!) at least until Monday. Tuesday is my baseline, then hopefully next week I will be starting injections and we will be well on our way to IUI # 3. For now I am just trying to take things one day at a time, keeping busy & trying to keep my eyes off of the calendar.
 
Blog Design by Imagination Designs
Graphic by OctopusArtis