Happy Monday afternoon everyone! I’m a little later with this post than I wanted to be, but it was such a busy weekend with my grandpas funeral services and several family members home, it was a constant go go go couple of days and I’m exhausted and still recovering!
I hope everyone enjoyed Mother’s Day weekend with their favorite moms. I had 3 separate gatherings to attend and it was my grandma’s birthday so it was a busy day. I know Mother’s Day can be a challenge for those who are TTC. I see many people curse the day and I admit, it’s something I wish I was celebrating for myself, as a mom, but I’m not yet. What I think about Mother’s Day is nothing negative. It’s a day for my mom and all my mom friends, and my MIL, and my step-mom and my grandma and my aunts, and all the wonderful women in my life who are moms. Just because I haven’t been able to enjoy it yet for myself, doesn’t mean that I won’t celebrate it for those who have been lucky enough to become moms. I can’t be bitter about Mother’s Day because that wouldn’t be fair to all these wonderful moms that I know. And I remind myself that one day, I will get to be on the receiving end.
That being said, today is 2 months until the official kick off of IVFx4. In 60 days I will have my baseline ultrasound and labs and will finally be able to start stims. I am anxious and excited to see how this cycle will differ from previous cycles. I already know that my medications will be different from what I’ve done in the past. This time I will be adding Menopur which I’ve never used, I will be monitored more closely, and we are shooting for about half the follicles that I had last time (34). This week is a pretty big week. I take my last BCP and once AF shows, I finally start the Aygestin protocol for the negative Beta 3 Integrin protein. Aygestin is a form of progestin that will help my hormones align. It is normally used for people who have had missing periods. My guess is I will be starting that a week from today.
If you guys recall I said I had set 6 mini-milestones for myself to help the time pass, I’ve already successfully made it through 3 of those 6! It is amazing how quickly the time is passing! I’m really looking forward to being able to enjoy some nice weather, moving into our home, my 29th birthday, a couple weddings, a bike trip, some camping, and whatever else comes over these next couple months. I know that I will be totally preoccupied once we are finally able to move into the house. Right now we are being held up pretty badly by all the rain. The last two things we need to do (the septic & replacement windows) require several days of dry weather. Although our septic is next on their schedule, our wet, muddy yard will bring things to a complete stop until its dry enough. Right now our goal is to be in at the end of this month.
When I think about our TTC journey and how naïve I was back in June of 2011 when I took myself off of birth control and that first month of being married, thinking on my honeymoon with a late period that I might already be pregnant, and now, almost 4 years later heading into a 4thround of IVF, I just have to remind myself that life is an adventure, it’s a challenge, it doesn’t always come easy, and it won’t always go according to plan. Although we haven’t become parents yet, I know that one day soon we will and that everything will fall into place. We are so blessed already, adding a baby to the mix would be the sweetest buttercream frosting on the tastiest cake called known as life. No matter how long it takes us to get there, or how we end up getting there, the bottom line is we will get there.