I seriously cannot believe that it is already July! I think I can speak for most when I say that this year is FLYING by and it kind of saddens me that every year I get older, the time just seems to go quicker and quicker. So this is the month that we have been
It has been about 9 months since our last failed cycle in November and although 9 months seems like a long time (and trust me, it is!) it was a really good, much needed break for both of us. We had, what I feel like was a necessary amount of time to really, truly reevaluate our situation, get our second opinion, and find some answers before prematurely jumping into another cycle. As much as I wanted to wayy back in January when I first started seeing Dr. Loret de Mola, I am so happy that he approached our situation the way he did. Although I was really not planning on having to wait 3 months for a cycle (just like I did last year), it has been worth the wait.
We have been able to focus practically all of our energy on the house and I think that was a really important part of our healing process and our ability to move forward comfortably and realistically with another cycle. It isn't just about doing an IVF cycle and getting pregnant, it's about being in the right state both physically and mentally, eliminating all the stress that you possibly can, treating the underlying cause of our infertility, and ultimately ending up with a healthy pregnancy and I feel like now we are finally at that place where that can be achieved. I don't think we have ever been in a better place than we have now.
For this cycle we will be comfortably settled into our forever home which is a huge step. Right now the room that I plan to be our future nursery is kind of a catch-all room that I really want to get cleaned up and emptied out, when I look in there now, I get anxiety because of all of the clutter in the room and I think it would be a good place to maybe do my yoga practice and meditation while we are cycling. I can make it a sacred space for the time being. I will be able to come back to my own home after this retrieval and transfer which I think will also be helpful and different from last year. If you remember, last year we were living in my parents basement (bless their hearts), stuffed into one room that was not our own. At the time, it seemed fine, but I have a more confident peace of mind knowing I can come home to my home.
If you guys follow me on Instagram then you have probably noticed that I am really trying to focus on my mind, body, soul, and spirit, not just for this cycle, but for every bit of the rest of my life. Practicing this on a daily basis has honestly made me feel so much more at ease about this cycle, no matter what the outcome. I am trying very hard not to base this experience on my previous experiences with IVF and this cycle is already different so I'm reminding myself of this regularly as well. Different protocols, different meds, different doctor, etc. and all for the better.
Today kicks off a big month for us. Another new chapter in our book. Friday I start my daily Lupron injections and next Friday is my baseline appointment where things will hopefully look perfect for the start our 4th, and hopefully last cycle of IVF. Thank you all for your continued love, prayers, thoughts, & support. You guys are awesome.