Wednesday, July 01, 2015

July


I seriously cannot believe that it is already July!  I think I can speak for most when I say that this year is FLYING by and it kind of saddens me that every year I get older, the time just seems to go quicker and quicker.  So this is the month that we have been patiently waiting for anxiously awaiting.  I was just reflecting on our journey so far and it seems so surreal that at this exact time last year I was stimming for my first fresh IVF cycle, now here I am, a year later, and 3 IVF cycles later and we are about to hit it again.  I hope and pray that this is it.  

It has been about 9 months since our last failed cycle in November and although 9 months seems like a long time (and trust me, it is!) it was a really good, much needed break for both of us.  We had, what I feel like was a necessary amount of time to really, truly reevaluate our situation, get our second opinion, and find some answers before prematurely jumping into another cycle.  As much as I wanted to wayy back in January when I first started seeing Dr. Loret de Mola, I am so happy that he approached our situation the way he did.  Although I was really not planning on having to wait 3 months for a cycle (just like I did last year), it has been worth the wait.

We have been able to focus practically all of our energy on the house and I think that was a really important part of our healing process and our ability to move forward comfortably and realistically with another cycle.  It isn't just about doing an IVF cycle and getting pregnant, it's about being in the right state both physically and mentally, eliminating all the stress that you possibly can, treating the underlying cause of our infertility, and ultimately ending up with a healthy pregnancy and I feel like now we are finally at that place where that can be achieved.  I don't think we have ever been in a better place than we have now.  

For this cycle we will be comfortably settled into our forever home which is a huge step.  Right now the room that I plan to be our future nursery is kind of a catch-all room that I really want to get cleaned up and emptied out, when I look in there now, I get anxiety because of all of the clutter in the room and I think it would be a good place to maybe do my yoga practice and meditation while we are cycling.  I can make it a sacred space for the time being.  I will be able to come back to my own home after this retrieval and transfer which I think will also be helpful and different from last year.  If you remember, last year we were living in my parents basement (bless their hearts), stuffed into one room that was not our own.  At the time, it seemed fine, but I have a more confident peace of mind knowing I can come home to my home.  

If you guys follow me on Instagram then you have probably noticed that I am really trying to focus on my mind, body, soul, and spirit, not just for this cycle, but for every bit of the rest of my life. Practicing this on a daily basis has honestly made me feel so much more at ease about this cycle, no matter what the outcome.  I am trying very hard not to base this experience on my previous experiences with IVF and this cycle is already different so I'm reminding myself of this regularly as well.  Different protocols, different meds, different doctor, etc. and all for the better.

Today kicks off a big month for us.  Another new chapter in our book.  Friday I start my daily Lupron injections and next Friday is my baseline appointment where things will hopefully look perfect for the start our 4th, and hopefully last cycle of IVF.  Thank you all for your continued love, prayers, thoughts, & support.  You guys are awesome.

18 comments:

  1. This year really is flying by! I'm so glad you are in such a great place right now and you're finally into your forever home! Praying this time is the time for you girl!

    <3, Pamela
    Sequins & Sea Breezes

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  2. i am so happy you all are in such a good place right now and all my good thoughts and wishes are with you for this cycle.

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  3. You have definitely been sharing some good vibrations lately! I love the idea of turning the future nursery into your sacred area right now. I think that's a fabulous idea! I for one can definitely empathize how difficult it is cramming into one small room at your parents' (except I was at my in laws &I it also included a 7 month old) I'm positive coming home to your own space is going to do dramatic wonders for you after the transfer! Hoping this is it for yall!!! Fingers (and toes) are crossed!!!

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  4. I am so excited it's finally here!! Everything just sounds so perfect :)

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  5. I'm so glad you're in such a good place moving into this cycle! I know that it is really a big deal to get your mind in the right place and I wish you all the best and most positive thoughts this month!

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  6. So excited for you!! I was in a very similar situation settling into our home and I looking back when I finally got pregnant the timing was perfect! I was much more relaxed. So glad you are incorporating yoga too! I really think it helps!! Praying for you!!

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  7. Always praying! I think it's huge that you're in such a positive place heading into this one.. :) You know I've been loving all of your positive vibes lately, the make me smile.

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  8. Eeee I got goosebumps reading this! So excited for you to get started! You're in such a better place and I'm constantly thinking about you and praying for you!

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  9. Excited!! Thinking of you.

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  10. Amazing. You are doing so well with this. I'm so happy your home is complete. I can't tell you how awesome I feel when we retreat upstairs to bed each evening. It's so calming. We redid the upstairs bathroom and the only remaining area is the future nursery, which, like you, is kind of a catch all for remaining random furniture and the like. Eventually, that room will be as dreamy as the rest, but it's amazing to have a space to call your own. Keep on keepin' on.

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  11. I cant believe it's July either! Wishing you well and thinking about you as you go through the process again. Good to hear you're in a good place. Everything will fall into place soon!

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  12. Since u are all about the mind, body, and soul connection right now u should definitely make the future nursery into a sacred place for u. Bring in some good vibes into that room. Ur forever home will soon be filled with ur forever family.

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  13. So excited July is (even though I agree it's going by wayyy too fast). So glad you have been resting and taking care of yourself! Excited for what is to come!

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  14. It sounds like everything is perfectly in place! I hope this is your cycle!!!

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  15. just followed ya on IG. yes, time flies by and i cannot believe it's july either! glad you're getting settled in and good luck with your next cycle!

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  16. It's not just you, this year is really flying by!

    xx
    Lauren Elizabeth
    Petite in Pearls

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  17. So many positive vibes your way. I cannot wait to hear how it was successful!

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  18. Such a great month for you! Praying for success for you! I think this second opinion and you being in your new home will definitely make a difference! :)

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