Thursday, July 20, 2017

My Eggs - The Closing Chapter

I know not all of you follow me on Instagram where I posted our final decision about our embryos a few weeks ago.  If you remember we were in a bit of a dilemma about what we were going to do going forward with our left over embryos that consisted of my eggs & Joe's sperm.  The cost to store them was rising, the cost to move them was expensive, and we weren't ready to try for baby number 2 just yet.

So if you saw my Instastory then you heard that we did decide to try to donate the 2 remaining frozen embryos to research rather than transferring them.  My clinic gave me 5 research labs that periodically accept frozen embryos donated for research so I checked online and unfortunately, none of those places were taking donations at the time.  I was bummed because the thought of discarding them is really kind of hard.  Even though the odds were stacked highly against them and I was 100% fine with not transferring them, it is still sad when you think that these potential lives are just being thrown away. 

So at this time the papers have been notarized and sent in for our 2 remaining embryos to be discarded.  I will never go through another egg retrieval (on myself or a donor for that matter), I will never have embryos created in a lab again, the only chance of ever having a biological child of my own is if by some miracle I get pregnant naturally & I am OK with all of this.  Sometimes life puts tough choices in front of us, having infertility has certainly proved that to us time and time again, but it could be worse and we are definitely thankful for where this journey has landed us in the end and that is as parents to our beautiful baby. 

Although we are on what many refer to as "the other side", our lives and our choices continue to be affected by infertility.  I will never forget the roller coaster of emotions that come along with this disease—the heartbreak, the tears, the disappointment, and the unknown, probably the scariest emotion of all.  We still have to consider the fact that I'll be losing infertility treatment coverage next year, we still have to think about when we will start telling our babies about their roots and how they come from a donor, we still have to come up with money for meds, for a cycle, for travel, & chances are we may never be able to conceive a baby on our own and that still stings. 

But, what I've come to realize throughout this entire process over the span of 5 years is that biology doesn't matter to me.  I've learned many other valuable things about optimism, and perseverance too, but undoubtedly, the most significant realization I've had rom this experience so far is that DNA is irrelevant.  At one time it absolutely meant everything to me, I just couldn't bring myself to even consider a child via egg donor that was not "mine", but now I'm older and clearly much wiser and I realize that my child is mine.  We are playing the cards that we are dealt and although it took us a lot of time and effort, to us we came out as winners.  Georgia is our full house, she is our trophy, and she is the symbol of our hard work and determination to win against infertility. 

So I close the book now, officially, on my eggs.  Once they're gone they're gone and I am ok with that.  I can say with unwavering certainty that I would not change the outcome of our journey for anything.  Georgia is such a special little lady and she already, at just a few months old has an amazing tale to tell about how she was brought into this world.  I'm not sure there is a child on this Earth that is as loved and wanted as she is, although I'm pretty biased when I say that.  I know that we made the right decision with our last 2 embryos and I'm happy to be able to get some closure with them.  Now we can focus on our little peach and continue our plan to grow our family.

Monday, July 17, 2017

Lark Adventurewear

As you may know there are tons of amazing baby clothing lines out there today.  Everything from big-name brands to smaller independently owned shops who are carving out their niche in the world of baby fashion.  Recently I received a piece from Lark Adventurewear and I cannot begin to tell you how amazing this little romper is.

First off, the fabric is eco-friendly and contains no chemicals or synthetic fabrics which is an instant win for us.  It's also unbelievably soft and my favorite and most functional detail about this romper is the kimono opening which makes putting this outfit on a serious piece of cake.  It also buttons at the bottom with 4 buttons so diaper changes are quick and easy!  I wish there was a way for you guys to be able to feel how soft and stretchy this material actually is! 

We put Georgia in this in the evening so she could play in it for a bit and also sleep in it.  The fabric is moisture-wicking so it kept her cool and dry, something that we definitely like to have right now since she is beginning to drool quite a bit.  She actually had a pretty bad drool rash on her neck, chin, and chest which we were able to heal with some hydrocortisone.  I was happy to be able to put an outfit on her that I knew wouldn't irritate it more since she was starting to itch at it, I knew it was bothering her.  This outfit was perfect to help with her rash. 

I'm seriously obsessed with this romper and cannot wait to get my hands on the colorblock footie in vintage floral, such a cute print!

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Friday, July 07, 2017

Our Favorite Bows

One of the questions I seem to get asked most about Georgia's outfits are where I get her bows.  We are total bow addicts and she wears one every day.  I'm taking advantage of it now while she's young and doesn't notice them yet.  Although we have a ton of different brands and styles, all that we love, we do have some favorites that have proved to be good quality, the best colors, the best fit, or ones we just seem to use the most.

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Best Bow Subscription - Little Poppy Co - we love these bows!  They fit amazing and the quality of the bow is seriously on point.  They lay nice and flat and always come in festive and fun colors & different styles.  This is our only bow subscription that we have at this time.  It's $11.99 a month plus shipping so we pay $15.49 a month for 3 bows that come in the mail.  I love the convenience of a bow subscription because you know you're getting 3 new bows.  The down side is you don't get to choose your bows, however, I've been happy with every single month so far.

Best "good cause" Bow shop - Raising Little Ridley's - these bows are near and dear to my heart because they are made to support a great cause - funding IVF for the owner of the shop!  Tina does an amazing job with her bows and one of my all time favorites in Georgia's collection is the bomb pop bow.  I'm also a little biased towards this shop because we just happen to share the same last name!

Most Used Bows - Lilly Belle Market - we get tons of compliments on these fun bows, the set we bought in particular is called the Mermaid Tail Bow Set which is currently sold out, however this shop is LOADED with bows, seriously so many choices!  I happened to buy these when I ran across them on a sale and was so happy with the quality of the bow.  We get a ton of use out of these.  I'd say these are probably our most worn bows next to the Little Poppy Co bows.  The bands are a little different, they come on a white elastic band rather than a nylon band.

Best Head Wrap Bow - Baby Bling Bows - I absolutely adore these bows.  They're so versatile size wise because they fit baby all the way up to adult.  They're so stretch and they come in the best colors!  I am totally obsessed with the royal blue one and the cactus print one that Georgia hasn't had a chance to wear yet.  Right now the only downside with these bows is the ALWAYS end up over her eyes, we then just refer to them as sleep masks rather than bows.  So when she does wear these I try to make it for shorter periods of time.

Most Sentimental Bow - The Itsy Bitsy Bow Co - honestly this peach colored bow is the only bow I own from this shop but it is one of my favorites!  I love the peachy/orange sherbert color and I love the wide style of this bow.  Georgia has been rocking this bow since she was just a few weeks old and luckily it still fits her, despite her head size putting her in the 92nd percentile it still fits her well & it still looks adorable on her.  This is one of the first bows I bought for her just a few weeks before she was born and I had to have it because of the color.  I believe I bought the very last one she had in the shop too.  This is just one special bow.

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